One of the most insidious ways systemic discrimination replicates itself is through intentional and unintentional sh*ttalking. We use gossip and "gut feelings" to police and control others who challenge the status quo - or who threaten our ego. We've been socialized to feel that talking trash brings intimacy. We often to do it to people we consider our closest colleagues.
TLDR: Something inside of me knows I can't be free if I can't forgive - and yet..... I don't. I look inside of myself and see a pile of rocks that feel infinitely heavy and far too hard to move. I stand there, frozen.
A fired up young person came up to me at a recent high school workshop I was leading and asked me if anti-racism was my goal - he was ready to pounce on my answer. "No" I simply replied and it stopped him in his tracks.
When I first started this list, I thought it would be valued for its utility. As I've poured out my reflections and favorite resources, I've learned the value is more - it's heart. As I share what's rattling my bones, I've found yours are rattling, too. So this year, I'm reframing this list as love letters - letters about our minds, hearts AND guts in this work, rooted in love.